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Wednesday, 19 January, 1994

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Wednesday, 22 January, 2003

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31 January 2001

Drama for 7th period was the icing of the German chocolate cake. I was moved into a pretty much complete Frosh class with pre-pubescent ladies' men, and hyper-hypo lesbians.

if you forget about me, I'll probably stop existing completely.

According to Emode, my wedding date will be Saturday, June 21, 2003

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1 February, 1995

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12 February 2003

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27 February 2003

Heather told me that Megan said that I was "Ultimate Babe Potential." I thought it was incredible, but still I'd rather be "Ultimate Babe Kinetic."

Already bad omens of Valentine's Day are looming terribly.

26 Candles. I figured I wouldn't plan anything for my birthday so that I'd get depressed without actually excerting much effort.

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3 March 2002

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22 March 2003

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22 April 2003

It feels like someone else is using my life-energy for their own pursuits. I hope whoever it is will make whatever it is worthwhile.

...we didn't kill each other. We just perpetuated whatever we have, which is simple sado-masochistic friendship.

I got a hot chocolate and read a magazine with the White Stripes as the cover story. In the story the Stripes emphasized the idea that there is the most creativity when there are the most limitations. I bought Star Trek 2 on DVD. The chick at the counter actually had a Star Trek conversation with me. She figures Star Trek 6 is the best. Very unusual. i always wanted to go to a Star Trek convention to meet girls. Sure there wouldn't be too many cute ones - but the cute ones that would be there would be wicked awesome... I popped in Star Trek 2 and watched the director's commentary. One thing he emphasized was the most creativity with the most limitations.

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11 May 1994

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12 June 2003

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9 June 2000

We played poker and Jeremy lost his sense of humor the first night. I lost my sense of direction and my wit to Jake, so for a while he was really super funny.

My insides are still going up and down from the swells of today. I attempted to learn how to surf. I got a couple of good stands in. I mostly went shallow on account of my not really knowing how to swim. I also bought some skates. Yes, skates. So I'm even gayer now.

Is this the end? Maybe this is a good choice. It's very dramatic. I hate the way things are. I hate school. I hate work. I hate my major. I have no desire to study. I have no desire to wake up. I have no desire to sleep. I despise my passions. I hate doing what is necessary to live. I hate having a girlfriend. I hate having a mistress who never calls. I feel next to nothing. Actually all I feel is GUILT, GUILT, GUILT.

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Ides of July 2002

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7 August 1993

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2 September 2003

It's quite amazing, with as hot as it is all the time nowdays, how cold most women I know are.

I flipped a u-turn and then J.R. got in my car and we chased them for a while. J.R. and I got bored so we met at Dover and loitered some more. According to the odometer, I drove 44.8 miles.

I just had a couple of slices of provolone cheese and stared at Mars. Provolone reminds me of Kristen. She loved provolone cheese. She used to make these great waffled sandwiches with provolone. I think that's one more reason why I'm so depressed all the time -- everything reminds me of somebody. Some people have more things they're associated with. Some people have been around forever. Of course Mars reminds me of no one. I've never stared at mars with anyone and I probably won't have another chance for another 60,000 years. That depressed me so I didn't stare at it for too long.